Dissapointment?!

well I recently met up with an high school crush in my orientations i never even talk to him at all before... since he was one grade older than me...
it was okay at first he talked to me and i talked to him... but when i saw him the second time we didn't talk at all and sorta ignored each other.... and there i was thinking.... "it must be fate..." the third time was even worse... he spent the whole time talking to some girls still in high school who idolizes him... "omg... you are so hot" they would say and he would be all pretend aloof about it... as if he doesn't care but actually his body language was implying wanted to hear more and more and more.... I was about to go crazy... what a pompous fool.... cocky...looking back now, he doesn't seen that attractive anymore. I used to worship him... tried to be where he would be ... now i realized what a fool i am to be fascinated by him... just when i think i would be be fine with him a go on facebook and see one of my best friend getting "into relationship" with a pretty hot guy... i want it too... there just no guy from school that i like... one of my old high school friend and i used to be in love with this guys but now his dreamguy image is crushed... i wish i never have met him at all ... destroy my impression of him...
I shoulda see it coming tho... a lot of my friends who knows him had told me that he is a pompous fool for at least a million times... and i didn't believe it! as for my best friend i am happy for her.... well but i still... this is gonna sound girly... but i guess this whole post is really girly and pissy...
just needed to vent i guess...