Identity Crisis?!?!?!

Yesterday, I went with bunch of my friends to sing karaoke!
I had fun I guess but all I realize is that I suck at everything!
We played DDR first (I know all these activities are very Asian) and I suck like monkey's butt. I don't know what I am good at anymore... not even singing because this girl that came with us has such a good voice and had many opportunity to show it off due to a certain guy who has a crush on her. Overall yesterday was not a good day at all.
This all tight back to the fact that I believe that I am special and different from other people. I don't believe I have a life yet.
And over the weekend I had heard a shocking news! What I thought was a summer fling never existed and the guy is just a huge flirt and never thought of me as anything but a gal from BC. This made me realized that I probably never had an actual relationship with anybody. It could be all from my imagination. I have no one I can trust anymore. I am so paranoid! I guess I can be happy with just friends and no best friends.
Some time when I look back to my childhood I wish I have never left my hometown. I was happy... at least I think I was the happiest in my hometown. I spoke the language and had best friends and was part of the overall community. I always wonder now, if i have never left would I turn out differently? Would I be happier now? or even more depressed? There is no use in looking back and regretting about stuff that I can't change but what can I do really to get myself out of this hellhole? I want to follow my dream but I am scared of the disappointment that my parents would feel. They had always educate me well and expect me to be a part of the meaningful society not some famous douche bag. Why can't I accept the fact I am just a person and normal boring person?